when i look at you

when i look at you
i try to go back
to before the trust was gone
before the broken heart
before the anger in your eyes

when i look at you
i try to see
what you told me you'd do
what you said you'd stop
what you told me i didn't have to worry about

when i look at you
i try to look with new eyes
the eyes that used to see forever
that used to see us old together
that never doubted you

but when i look at you
your eyes don't meet mine
you kiss me on the forehead
and tell me to relax
and keep breaking my heart