the j-o-b decision

my wise and wonderful father said to write a list of the pros and cons of the two job offers i have on the table, then to throw the list away and go with my gut... we all know my stomach is not the most friendly of things... in fact, it's been awful for over a year now... but i will go with my intuition and things will become much clearer after i have a chance to write it all down...

first, though, i need a playlist in the background... hold please.....while the songs are still downloading, bullet points:

current job: Yardi
job offer: Ascentia

cj: 67 miles from home
jo: 17 miles from home

cj: $xK a year
jo: $x + 8K a year

cj: inside the organization
jo: back to being a client

cj: been there a year, have 2 people i'd walk through fire for
jo: been working with them a year, lots of acquaintences

cj: instant access to my other yardi friends
jo: back to being a client - access still available, just not as a coworker

cj: counter offer included 3 work from home days (which i've been asking for for a year)
jo: immediate work from home option

cj: i've loved this company for 10 years
jo: just met this company

(still waiting for the songs to get organized..... UGH)

PROS of Yardi
(k, playlist playing... first song: Forest by The Cure)
Yardi is a company that has thousands of clients, and is always growing.
I know a lot of people in Yardi, and love most of them.
The software is cool, and i know enough about it to talk my way through anything

PROS of Ascentia
small company
LOCAL headquarters
i'm coming in as an executive with the respect and admiration of the head haunchos already
i'll still be doing Yardi, just not as part of Yardi
i'll get to do trainings and documentation
they respect my schedule and will give me flex time

OKAY... this is becoming a DUH situation. Of course i will end up working for Ascentia. why wouldn't i? even if i take the yardi offer of working from home three days a week (second song: She Talks to Angels by The Black Crows), i'd still have to do the commute two days a week....

i took the job at Yardi just to have the opportunity to work for the company i'd been on the fringes of for so long. it killed my family... we can't pay our bills, i'm gone from 6am - 7pm every day, but only getting paid 8 of those hours.... this is a no brainer.

i feel like i will be letting some people down... randy, doug, neil, whitt... i am sure they will all understand, they know me... but honestly, i think the best thing for me is to work locally, help this other company use the software the best it can, and find a permanent home here... i think i can get travis a job here, too... why was this even an issue?

maybe because i never expected Yardi to come back to me with an offer to try to get me to stay. i was told a few months ago that i wasn't a valuable enough asset to the company for allowances to be made. now they are turning those tables and offering me everything i asked for a year ago. that's what's hard. i see them trying to keep me. but it boils down to they are 67 miles away and are paying me 700 less a month than this other offer...

the yardi office in colorado springs is an acquisition from 2 years ago. the yardi culture i fell in love with has not permeated the bank building walls here. there is no camaraderie, no flexibility... the people are petty and small. i have two friends there, because i came in and said what was on my mind, and tried to move the company into the Yardi culture... all it really got me was sick. i am a constant target of gossip and other bullshit... it's not a nice place to work. even just two days a week.

the people i really feel like i'll be letting down are my clients. my clients and my other yardi connects i deal with on a daily basis that respect my knowledge. ultimately, though, i believe they would all want me to do what is best for my family. and leaving yardi and working for ascentia is really the best thing... so why was this so hard for me??? i don't know...

okay... tossing the list... going with my sick gut... july 1st will be my last day at yardi... can i have a drink now, daddy?????